I can’t believe I didn’t blog last week about hearing the baby’s heartbeat for the first time. I ‘facebooked’ it – yes, I’m not being secretive anymore* – and emailed a couple of people, and forgot all about blogging.
I had my last check-up with my fabulous GP, before my equally fabulous midwife takes over. It took him ages to find the heartbeat, while I was lying there thinking my every fear was being realised. He did say something like “Sometimes it pops right up, and sometimes it just takes a while,” which was sort of reassuring but… well, only sort-of. But eventually he did find it, and it was all good.
I had moreorless made it completely public before then, but I had still felt a little bit cagey about it – like I should just hedge my bets or something – until hearing the heartbeat. I think partly because I’m in a ‘due date’ group on essential baby and almost everyone there has had at least one scan already (the 12 weeks ‘Downs’ scan), if not a couple. So to have not even heard the heartbeat, much less had an ultrasound, was feeling almost weird.
But now, I look pregnant, I feel pregnant but in a much better way than I did in the first trimester (still nauseous, but not nearly as much/badly, and without the depression), and I’ve heard the heartbeat. It is all seeming pretty good, and pretty real.
And I’ve got my first appointment with my midwife on Friday.
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*Must import these posts into my other blog soon, and then I guess close this one down…
Hooray!!! I think you are due around the same time as my friend who is having twins. I was thinking about this yesterday because I saw her and she is now “out” about being pregnant so I thought you likely were getting more out, too!
Yes, I have to be totally out now – way to obviously pregnant to hide it any more!
Funnily (sort of), when I went to see the midwife on Friday *she* couldn’t find the heartbeat – though at least she prefaced the attempt by saying ‘now, we can’t always find it this early’. She didn’t try for as long as my GP did though. So anyway, it was just as well I’d heard it only a week early or I would be truly panicked now. She said I can pop back in sometime I the next couple of weeks to try again if I like – I’m thinking yeah, I will probably do that!